Yesterday was fun. We were folding newspapers into messy origamis after trying to solve a puzzle and then we looked, of course, out of our minds, with PMR less than a week away. Despite that I felt really excited that it was going to go away soon, so soon. When we were going to wash our hands before going home, we saw some form 3s and a form 5 playing "Train" around the corridor. As expected of me, I told Lydia and Wee Vien that they’ve totally lost their minds due to stress. And they replied that we have too, doing origamis out of the sudden. Haha, sure, agreed 100%.
I’ve been drawing out plans for the ‘two and a half months break’ in my head, of course. Who wouldn’t after so much of "It’s just PMR"s and "You’ll go through it"s as well as "It’s important, too"s ?!!?? However, I’m not too convinced about living it up to my expectations. You see, most of them aren’t realistic enough. However, I definately will not have a 180 degrees turn from my plans. WaHAHhahAhA hAhAHaha..maybe just i’ll just turn 179 degrees from them..hahaaha….MERDEKA IN NINE DAYS!!! *Countdown* ^_^

Its meaning from the dictionary : noun [C] the state of feeling less important, clever, successful, etc than other people [] kompleks rendah diri.

Inferiority complex

Okay, maybe i am not suffering from it. This is extreme low self-esteem! Still, i just wanna say that it really does exist in this world, and there are possibilities of our friends going through that. It would be really difficult to think, to smile, to talk. Thank you, Lord, for those people who help them.

That’s what i’ve been hearing a lot the last week. "As if I don’t know", I reply. That, is in my head, of course. How would I sound being so ungrateful of their caring repetitive reminders. I actually have been studying lately, *gasp*. Yea, but it’s not a lot, at least it’s slightly beneficial. I’m glad that I’m not only revising Sejarah now. It gets boring but if compared to Geografi…AARGH I BELIEVE YOU ALL NOW THAT GEOG IS HARDER THAN HISTORY…! Because this year’s Geog teacher is not exactly my fave one. Sigh. Not that the marks are two worlds different, just that my perspective of having Geo classes degraded.  I used to love it when I was in form 1 and 2.
Have you ever felt so lonely as you fall asleep at night, and a couple of tears just trickle down your cheeks out of the sudden, but as you think again you feel that you were being stupid and imagined all those loneliness? haha..
Have I ever said that I started laughing a lot to curb stress, no matter how bad it sounds? Can’t remember. But yeah I am, although it sounds pretty natural to laugh at those times. Or not. Anw…the next topic..
Cravings. Too many a times already. Lydia should know XD
PMR - jia you! It’s gonna be over before we know it ^^

Now I’m really sleepy, dizzy when i move my head a little, but I’m still gonna update this..i don’t know with what, but i’m gonna do it no matter what it costs me!!!…okay, that statement is kind of over the edge, nevertheless..
Although National Day is over, the school is gonna ask us to sing the patriotic songs until mid-month, i suppose..and three weeks after that it’s gonna be all over..It’s gonna be gone in a blink of an eye, and then a couple of months later i can say, "Aiyah, it just PMR..!" XD fun, ain’t it?
I haven’t start to feel exhausted. After all, it’s just the second week of real revision - with breaks every other day. Just that it’s really freaky to have dreams about voluntaring for wars, and then after that a BUS comes to our rescue..really cute x)

It’s seriously close to PMR, now that it’s only a month away. No more computing for hours(and it’s not like i can or want to) anymore..A friend of mine sent me an sms, talking about "Tarikh bersejarah yang tidak dicatat dalam buku teks, 6 Oktober 2006, tamatnya darurat "stay at home and study" etc..haha cute message..and Lydia, with her MSN Messenger message, "1 month…. still very long ma! no need 2 worry. Relax…." she’s a chill pill..

Me : I’m struggling with History. I’m barely 70+ for Geography and KH, even Science..some of the Science questions in the subjective paper is…aarrgh! Unbelievably easy, and i over-analysed it..a 3 marks question gone just like that..oh well doesn’t matter now..

7As. =) =D =S